http://www.sarahsplayhouse.com/blog/ Latest Blogs http://www.sarahsplayhouse.com/-anoushka-/blog/the-songbird/ Firstly a small story to this poem. 4 months after the death of my husband, I was just in a black hole. All I wanted to do was sleep and not wake up b...]]> Firstly a small story to this poem. 4 months after the death of my husband, I was just in a black hole. All I wanted to do was sleep and not wake up because as soon as I awoke..all the painful emotions swamped my mind instantly. This one particular morning as I awoke and still had my eyes shut, I heard the most beautiful song from a bird outside my window. I had never heard this bird before and something happened to me at that moment. I peered out the window searching for the source of this beautiful song but was unable to find it. I felt it was a sign, telling me that life could still be beautiful and there was still much to be thankful for. I felt my soul and my blackness lift right there and then and was inspired to write this poem. The words are quite true.


The Songbird


Lying in bed in the cool of the morn
I heard a bird sing at the break of the dawn,
Its song so unique with its resonant sound
This song that I heard from a bird on the ground.

Did God give this bird its beautiful voice
Or did it receive it without any choice?
My heart sings for joy as the music I hear
Evokes such response, in my eye there’s a tear.

I peer through the window as I try to perceive
This mysterious bird, I don’t want to leave.
Its song calls out “I am here, can’t you see?”
I am quite beautiful, alive and so free.

My eyes cannot trace it even though I do try
This bold little beauty possibly oh so shy,
Hidden away from those who are near
No finding this gem with its voice sharp and clear.

Suddenly I am joyful with a spring in my step
And I feel oh so vibrant I will never forget
How the bird near my window had lifted my soul
Then touched me so deeply and made me feel whole.

So each morning when I wake up and stretch with a sigh
I wonder will I hear that little bird bye and bye
Or will it remain like a dream in my mind
The magnificent song of that bird.. such a kind

There are gifts in this world can be shared yes by all,
If we find them we’re ecstatic for their beauty enthralls
All those who are open to a beautiful sight
Whether it be in the morning, afternoon or night

Nature is a gift which is there to admire
So just look around you for there’s no way you will tire
Of treasures so diverse waiting for you to explore
Whether suburbia, mountains, forest,sea or shore.

Take time to smell the roses before your time runs out,
Your life will become enriched and of this I have no doubt
So many wonders in this world, too wondrous to explain
Leave some time for new discoveries, they may never come again!

Anoushka (November 2006)
Inspiration to live ]]> http://www.sarahsplayhouse.com/-anoushka-/blog/the-songbird/ Fri, 30 Jul 2010 04:44:29 +0000 Anoushka http://www.sarahsplayhouse.com/jonasm/blog/desperation/
Desperation ...
Hello everyone!
Well, and here I am back! Not as happy like last time, not because I'm not happy with my special friend but because I...]]>
Desperation ...
Hello everyone!
Well, and here I am back! Not as happy like last time, not because I'm not happy with my special friend but because I'm tired of being alone, tired of being away from those who taste and makes me happy simply being present ! Not to blame these people, but myself that once again went in search for a new life, a new course, dont know it, so maybe I was running away from something that cost so much to overcome and so the distance helped that to could !
I immensely miss my son, I miss him lots! He was there,my bob ,in the bad moments of my life, and still is, he who gives me strength to wake up everyday and fight with all strength! Forces those who are missing, and therefore the reason to come back here today! Now and soo much time away from my "litle-monkey", far from who loves me! Another oto blame, is the disease, that boderes me for two months already,so fare, and do not see an end, the doctors are not resolved and it seems that I am a lab rat! They do not know what is happening and so are medicinal drugs and chasing tests and more tests and more drugs and walk this circle over and over again! The worst and we're almost on the anniversary of my "litle-monkey, when I intend to go to Portugal on holiday, and I can not see me go, with anger but is very complicated, even with only four weeks to date and I still low without going back to work! After all this only makes me even worse, my head do not stop, since I can hardly sleep, eat, also, so I am going to increasingly low and without strength! It is time that i just think to quit, quit worrying about my own health, so think about returning to work that way either, sick or not! So I could go see my son, and all that make me miss it!
Sincerely ithink that I've already lost the will to "live", being just one, lost and forgotten in the world in life, I'm coming to a point that nothing makes me think twice because each time I think that my life is the win a new direction, a direction for the better and remember when life its give me another kick in the ass and make me go back again! Tired of "living" and she push me down again and again and again! Well sick of everything including me to be here to complain about the rant .... sorry ....
Sick and tired of life but got to live it!

]]> http://www.sarahsplayhouse.com/jonasm/blog/desperation/ Fri, 30 Jul 2010 01:56:24 +0000 Joao http://www.sarahsplayhouse.com/jonasm/blog/tired/ The thing is im portuguese so i wrotte in portuguese so the rhymes m...]]> The thing is im portuguese so i wrotte in portuguese so the rhymes may not be ok,cuse is a poem,and you may find it confuse but what is important is the meaning!
I just writte about my fellings and normally when im felling a bit down/low so dont aspect happy things! Hope you like it!
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Tired ...

... Is how I feel,
how to spend my days
Tired of all my life,
only backwards
Tired of looking and not be seen,
of unhappiness and "heartburn"
Tired of fighting without weight and measure,
to try and not be able!

Tired of a disease
who sees not the cure
Tired of doctors
and the radius of the drugs
Tired of examinations
and false "ecstasy"!

Tired of having to tighten their belts,
only because the disease does not see improvements
Tired, not seeing people that I hold dear,
trying the best that I can
Tired, not knowing if I will or I will not,
just want to see better days
Tired of all of life,
"-... of you or are not you? "

Tired, not to be present
for failing to be happy
Tired of missing that I feel my son
not be present in your "fifth"
Tired, because it is one more
anniversary of a "fast"!

Tired of not saying what I feel
, without any reason to apologize
Tired of you, life,
just give me that kick
Tired of happiness that does not behold him,
and even then not stop running after
Tired of all of life
they just feel like leaving everything behind!

Tired, your lack of feeling,
even better is from
Tired, for you my dear son,
who have felt so lacking
Tired, and so is the end
I want to be with you all, so yes!

Tired of all of life!
]]> http://www.sarahsplayhouse.com/jonasm/blog/tired/ Thu, 29 Jul 2010 03:26:19 +0000 Joao http://www.sarahsplayhouse.com/lasting41/blog/family/ i know we all come from differant homes ,and some were probablly filled with love and laughter.i can only speak for myself when i say the love and lau... http://www.sarahsplayhouse.com/lasting41/blog/family/ Wed, 28 Jul 2010 09:37:57 +0000 lasting 41 http://www.sarahsplayhouse.com/-anoushka-/blog/who-knows/ Who Knows

Who knows which way our life will go
The various twists and turns,
The path which once seemed safe & straight
Now curves, presenting new c...]]> Who Knows

Who knows which way our life will go
The various twists and turns,
The path which once seemed safe & straight
Now curves, presenting new concerns

Who knows about friendships we’ll encounter in life
If they will remain true or stay but a while,
Some will just blossom then come to a halt,
While others build slowly and cause us to smile

Who knows if dreams possibly one day will come true
Or if they'll just always be dreams,
For now they may be all that some of us have,
But for others life changes, anew, so it seems

Who knows if we are part of some pre-destined plan
Or if fate comes about from controlling it so,
Should we just let things be, perhaps give them a push!
If we do not try, would we ever know?

Who knows?]]> http://www.sarahsplayhouse.com/-anoushka-/blog/who-knows/ Wed, 28 Jul 2010 08:03:26 +0000 Anoushka http://www.sarahsplayhouse.com/-anoushka-/blog/the-homecoming-x-rated/




Love heart pictures

The Homecoming X Rated

I hear the car pull into the driveway. I have missed you so much and am excited about you being home
...]]>




Love heart pictures

The Homecoming X Rated

I hear the car pull into the driveway. I have missed you so much and am excited about you being home at last. The car door closes and I hear your footsteps as they make their way up the path to the front door. I make my way quickly to the front door and open it just as you are about to put your key in the lock. You move back, surprised and look at me smiling and I can see the appreciation and approval in your eyes.
I have a black and white french maids apron on, no bra, black fish net stockings, black high heels, a little maid’s frilly cap upon my head and nothing else. I pull you inside the door as not having seen you for some time I am feeling a little. “hungry”. Wrapping my arms around you, I kiss you passionately, undo your shirt and as we are dragging ourselves down the hallway, unfasten the belt on your jeans. Your jeans fall down your legs so you step out of them and your shirt gets thrown on floor. I lead you towards the big chair in the living room and as you pull down your undies you nearly trip over making us both laugh and giggle. You are almost in the nude so I push you onto the big luxurious lounge chair and pull your socks off as I smile at you. You are wearing nothing but a wicked grin as I kick my shoes off and proceed to move up onto your lap, sitting on you with my legs now folded underneath me. We continue to kiss, our mouths hungry for each other, tongues exploring. sweet sensations charging through our bodies. I have a belt on with my stockings, the apron and nothing else... no panties. I can feel you underneath me, twitching, hot, against me.. mmmmmmmmmm You play with my fishnets stockings rubbing my legs and thighs as we kiss.
You are making me so hot my darling. My hands are caressing your shoulders and chest while you move your hands up under the top part of my apron feeling my breasts, each hand playing with my nipples making them so hard. You undo the top part of the apron and it falls down over my breasts. Your mouth devours first the left nipple,as you suck it right out, flicking it with your tongue..mmmmmmm. then your mouth moves across to the other side..devouring the other nipple, so it won’t feel lonely..smiles.... My hands rub your thighs and I lift myself up a little and feel you underneath so I grasp you in my hands....mmmmmmmmmmmmmmm I do so like what I am touching. It feels so hot, hard and wonderful as it throbs in my hands..

Your hands play with my butt and rub me..and as I lift myself slightly your right hand moves under me and finds my little honey pot. You explore me, sliding your fingers up and down, rubbing me and releasing all my excitement as I start to ooze. Your mouth searches for mine again and our kisses get more passionate as our bodies react to the electrical impulses charging through us. You are so excited now, so so excited. I can feel you twitching against me, so ready for me. You take hold of yourself and I move myself up and over the top of you. MMMMMM.. you rub yourself back and forth against me, teasing me. Oh that feels so marvelous, damn.. you are making me feel so crazy for you! I whisper, “ I love you my darling. I need you so much and want you inside me” You tease me at first, just rubbing yourself across me slowly, making me want you even more. You know by my movements how much I want you but still you wait. I get impatient, begging you, but no you are in such a teasing mood and I scowl. Finally I lose my cool and get aggressive, pulling your hair at first and then with my hands under your thighs try to pull you up inside me but you resist, teasing me so badly. I scream “FUCK ME NOWWWWW!!!” You smile at me as you have been rewarded with the result you were after and then slide into me ever so slowly, your hands forcing me down on top of you. Oohhhhhhhhhh..I gasp as you grab either side of my butt and move me up and down, watching me intently as you do so. You love to watch my face contort as it goes into the throes of passion. I close my eyes, moaning and call your name, lost in ecstacy. Your movements are so restrained, slow and disciplined to start with as you love to build me up to an orgasm first Your arms hold me back from moving quicker and you move me up slowly and pull me down hard and strong.. We are moving together now, as one.. getting slightly faster and then the pace is full steam ahead, with you slamming me down on top of you. I can feel the heat starting to spread through me. Can feel you pounding into me, throbbing. I know you are getting so very near as I can feel the sense of urgency now. Your voice, thick and husky, calls my name., “Oh my dear sweet sweet woman” you moan... ohhhhhhhhh... I throw myself up and down in a frenzy now as you grab my boobs and suck hungrily. My breasts are bouncing around and I start to scream as I feel the waves starting to flow over me. I yield to it all and feel myself starting the final climb which will lead me to a beautiful orgasm..Yes my darling..yes! You are so close now and sense that I am about to come. We both shout out each others names as the explosion hits us... Ohhhhhh…., I spasm as the orgasm overwhelms me, orgasmic ripples convulsing my body from my tummy down to my thighs as you thrust hard and deep inside me. My vaginal muscles contracting around you as they suck on your cock, takes you over the edge. You yell as you burst inside me, grabbing me hard as your orgasm takes over….mmmmmmmmmmmm I can feel you squirting all hot inside....mmmmmmmmmmmmmmm So much come squirting inside me. You have been saving it up my love…mmmmm smiles.. Both our hearts pounding, we slow our movements as our orgasms subside and then we just lie there in each others arms.. quietly, .still as one, both pulsating, bodies against each other as we kiss softly and cuddle each other. You stroke my shoulders and arms, rubbing my thighs, still encased in the black fishnet stockings. I look at you and smile, with my arms around you. You smile back, then we kiss again sweetly, stretch out and rest quietly together with our eyes closed. What a great feeling of warmth, comfort and love. We stay like this for about 30 minutes and as our eyes open I smile at you and say,......
“Welcome home my love, welcome home. Dinner will be ready soon but I hope you enjoyed your entree!"...and I laugh.....

5 February 2009
..... ]]> http://www.sarahsplayhouse.com/-anoushka-/blog/the-homecoming-x-rated/ Tue, 27 Jul 2010 04:06:09 +0000 Anoushka http://www.sarahsplayhouse.com/-anoushka-/blog/dreams/




Love pictures

Dreams


To walk with you at sunset and enjoy the departing sun,
To sit with you at sunrise and watch as the new day comes,
To be
...]]>




Love pictures

Dreams


To walk with you at sunset and enjoy the departing sun,
To sit with you at sunrise and watch as the new day comes,
To be with you on a starry night and marvel at gems in the sky,
To hold you tight in loves embrace and feel emotions that make me sigh,
To explore new sights as each day unfolds,
To create new memories which one day will be told,
To experience laughter at the humour we share,
To wipe away fears as we show that we care,
To relax on a beach and sit by the shore,
To hear seagulls calling as we hear oceans roar,
To drive through the hills admiring the view,
To notice all of natures colourful hues,
To be in your arms feeling young once again
To see you lying next to me as my eyes open,
As I end this right now with thoughts of you in my mind,
My dreams will continue with the passing of time

17 January 2010]]> http://www.sarahsplayhouse.com/-anoushka-/blog/dreams/ Mon, 26 Jul 2010 14:47:14 +0000 Anoushka http://www.sarahsplayhouse.com/-anoushka-/blog/magical/ MAGICAL




The sunlight shines in, awakening me as it hits my face
I stretch out as the fog leaves my mind,
A cacophony of sounds fills my ears as my...]]> MAGICAL




The sunlight shines in, awakening me as it hits my face
I stretch out as the fog leaves my mind,
A cacophony of sounds fills my ears as my eyes try to open,
This time with you has been such a find!

My head turns as I look at you, reaching out my hand to touch
Can’t believe your really there, your still asleep
Quietly I observe, not missing any detail
Filing away new memories to keep!

The clock ticks loudly, surely it will wake you,
I want this moment in time to last,
You lie still, so calm, your body so relaxed
Tranquility of slumber following delights of evening past!

Images of bathing, sweet smells, oils, you,
Kisses, caresses, passion, no end in sight,
Yielding to each other as we both start the climb
Leading to Nirvana, entwined ever so tight

Your eyes open, catching me smiling at you
As memories you recall of hours gone by,
Instant desire once again as your hands reach for me
Rekindling the fire, room filled with our sighs

Exhausted we lie there in each other’s arms
No need for a word to be spoken,
Bliss, sighs of contentment, hearts beating as one
The magical spell won’t be broken!

Anoushka]]> http://www.sarahsplayhouse.com/-anoushka-/blog/magical/ Sun, 25 Jul 2010 20:37:34 +0000 Anoushka http://www.sarahsplayhouse.com/GretaGarbo/blog/sharing-a-part-of-me/
First of all, THANK YOU all...]]>
First of all, THANK YOU all friendly and fun members on sarahs, you are always welcoming and everyone is so nice. Never stop being such a wonderful group and persons.

Now, -deep breath and theatrical pause lol- I've been struggling with depression in many years now, just last fall I got dragged to the doctors to get help. Medication and see us in two weeks.When being in chat I might sometimes shift in mood and sometimes i just like watching people talk if its a bad day. I sometimes can be really hyperactive and impulsive but every turn on the scale is quite destructive.

Im a friendly and caring person and with lots of emotions and I never wish anyone any harm. But sometimes or somedays its hard to act with others and if i ever seem rude to anyone of you, please know its not my intention and its hard to explain if something gets said and i dont understand until its too late that it might be offensive.

This is something that happens in everyday life just as much. Im so blessed I have Lasting beside me. He is patient and caring when I with no reason cry over the folded laundry or gives out a irritated shriek or simply just laying in bed for a day or two after forgetting to take the pills.Im so grateful to him, I wonder how he deals with it. I would go crazy after ten minutes. ->Exhibit A.

I still havent accepted it as a decease and its not many who knows stuff like this about me (until now) so i put my walls on the shelf for now and with this i take a step forward in dealing with it perhaps.hopefully,maybe.

I want to stay here though, for friendship.
And without trying to get sympathy or pity I felt that this is a good way to introduce myself a bit. And just letting you know. Thank you.]]> http://www.sarahsplayhouse.com/GretaGarbo/blog/sharing-a-part-of-me/ Thu, 22 Jul 2010 08:17:42 +0000 GretaGarbo http://www.sarahsplayhouse.com/-anoushka-/blog/the-kitchen-x-rated/ I am in the kitchen wandering around as in a daze..tired..sleep still fogging my mind after the passionate night spent with my man. I am preparing th...]]> I am in the kitchen wandering around as in a daze..tired..sleep still fogging my mind after the passionate night spent with my man. I am preparing the morning coffee, (unusual for me as it’s usually tea, I know) but my darling is still asleep, his body replenishing everything spent just hours before. Oh the memories that flood back into my mind as I recall our time together. I shut my eyes and while my mind is drifting off you are suddenly there behind me. I shiver….

You nibble the back of my neck sliding your kisses down to my right shoulder as your body snuggles up and allows me to feel your now evident erection, your wonderful cock. Mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm, already feeling excited before you had even entered the kitchen, I am instantly aroused, my hands moving behind me to pull your thighs closer. You turn me around, and lift me up onto the bench counter. All I am wearing is a nightshirt, so my legs are free although I am wearing my ankle uggboots to keep my feet warm. As I look at you, I lean down and kiss your lips gently. We both part our lips a little, allowing our tongues to seek each other out and connect. Intoxicating us, we both get very heady and aroused so your hands run themselves up my legs massaging my calves then moving slowly upwards.mmm The kiss is slow and sweet and sends stimulating messages to both our bodies, preparing us for the love feast to follow. You break away from the kiss and move back a little. First you catch my glance and then part my legs. Moving closer and bending your head you kiss my thighs, oh that’s so good!! Your hands grab my buttocks as your head moves in closer and I lean on my hands laying back a little as I push myself up towards your face. Your lips suddenly start kissing the tops of my thighs, leaving little trailing kisses until your mouth is over my pussy. Ohhh,, your tongue goes out and with a very long slow lick glides right up over me and then back down making me so damn wet! You repeat this process a few times driving me crazy with desire. Your tongue pushes into me a few times and then slides up and down..ohhhhhhh…. am lost in the ecstacy!! Calling your name, I moan that I need you, you keep licking me in a steady fashion, introducing one of your fingers into me, sliding it in and out slowly while licking my clit at the same time. My breath is coming in gasps now as you gently finger me first with one finger, then two, again, in and out slowly to start but then quickening the speed. I am so wet now and the noises excite me even more. You are wearing a t-shirt on top and nothing else and now I want you so badly.

I move nearer to the edge of the bench and push your head away, wrapping my legs around you, sliding down. With one arm you hold me and with the other you hold your cock (which is in a great state of arousal) and as I slide down, you guide it into me. Ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh my love you feel so great inside my pussy. You lift me like that and with our bodies entwined, you walk into the living room and lay me over the side of my big chair which has very wide arms. My head and shoulders slide over onto the seat of the chair while my hips and pubic area are raised on the very wide and high arms of the chair. I am filled with your engorged cock. First of all you put your fingers over to my mouth for me to suck..I suck your fingers mmmmmmm and you start to move inside me slowly, gently holding me with your left hand on my right buttock pulling me closer. I pull my night shirt off over my head and my breasts start bouncing around as you thrust your cock into me. The sight of your cock inside my pussy and my breasts moving to each thrust has you so excited now and you start moving at a faster pace. That rythym we both know and love is now happening with you thrusting so hard now while I grab the chair to sustain me, pushing my hips up to meet your moves. Moving closer you grab my thighs and almost stand me on my head with your fast strong intense movements.. Oh my love,I can feel the warmth starting to spread over me as my muscles start contracting around your cock. You are so near now to shooting all your beautiful come inside me. Your eyes are closed and your head goes back.. You make love to me fast and furiously now. Your balls are slamming against me..I love that, and am near to climaxing…. I start to scream, moan, and then break into my orgasmic laughter as the intensity of the orgasm flows over me. Just at that moment your back arches a little and you slam into me so hard, shooting inside me, filling me up, combined juices causing me to leak out everywhere.Ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh mwahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh my love..Your movements slow right down as your cock pumps out the last few drops inside me. You fall across my body for a moment, nestling into me as we recover and let our hearts slow down. We lay like this for some time, completely relaxed.

Removing yourself from me, I vacate the chair and go to my linen cupboard pulling out a towel. I place the towel on the chair and taking your arms, I push you into the chair. I go to the kitchen and get a little bowl of warm water and a face cloth. Coming back I get down on my knees with bowl beside me. Emerging the face cloth into the water, I take it and wash you around your cock and under and around your balls, gently cleaning you up. Your cock instantly starts to respond to being touched and starts jumping in little jerky movements while I bathe you. I put the bowl aside out of the way and while I am on my knees I lean forward. With hands on your thighs, and my breasts against your legs I put my tongue out and kiss the head of your cock. As I look up at you my tongue starts to lick you all over, up and down, around and around licking you all the way from the top down to your scrotum. Sucking your balls into my mouth slowly and gently rolling them around, I smile at you…I grasp you with my right hand and start rubbing you up and down while licking you. My hand more firm around you starts moving faster while my mouth is over the top of you now..savouring you. You are so relaxed in the chair..Your hands are stroking my hair as you watch me sucking and eating you all up. My mouth is so full of you and all the time my tongue exploring you whilst rubbing you up and down with my hand. "Ohhhh …missy…. you say.. that feels so wonderful"!! You are so relaxed there, just allowing me to have my way with you.. mmmmmmmmm I want to feel you come inside my mouth so I am encouraging that by sucking a little faster now, up and down, up and down.. I can feel your cock so huge and swollen in my mouth getting closer..pulsating. My movements start to quicken as I sense your impending orgasm. Looking at you I start to get into a really quick rythym now. Wet, sucking noises faster and faster, you start to move yourself in my mouth pushing to meet my sucks….Oh my darling.. I feel you stiffen as suddenly you spurt into my mouth…Oh it is hot and tastes so beautiful Mmmmmmm. Your cock is pumping into my mouth and as I take you out, you spurt all over my face. I swallow what is inside my mouth, then run my tongue around my lips to make sure I don’t miss any mmmmmmm. You can’t move…you are so spent. I move up onto the chair with you and nestle into your arms..You turn and kiss me as we melt into an embrace with your arms around me holding me tightly. I move away and look at you with love in my eyes and see that love being returned in the way you look back at me. Smiling I say to you “mmmmm now what’s for breakfast and what shall we do with the day today sweetheart?” ]]> http://www.sarahsplayhouse.com/-anoushka-/blog/the-kitchen-x-rated/ Wed, 21 Jul 2010 04:38:27 +0000 Anoushka http://www.sarahsplayhouse.com/lasting41/blog/if-i-ever-run-into-that-guy/ http://www.sarahsplayhouse.com/lasting41/blog/if-i-ever-run-into-that-guy/ Fri, 16 Jul 2010 11:37:07 +0000 lasting 41 http://www.sarahsplayhouse.com/-anoushka-/blog/time-heals-they-say/
Those of you who have known me for some time would know I am not the kind of person wh...]]>
Those of you who have known me for some time would know I am not the kind of person who will dwell on something. Why is it..when we are positive people who don't stay down for long but get on with the challenges that life throws at us..why is it that when certain dates come around we still feel deeply to the point of hurting as another anniversary is upon us..throwing up the past as if it were just yesterday and overwhelming us with all kinds of feelings. For some.. It could be a death, or divorce, separation. possibly a date that a terminal illness was diagnosed and in my own case..am thinking of my late husband. This time of year no matter how good things may be with me, I just become completely drained..emotion wise. 14th July was my wedding anniversary and 17th the date of my husband's death. Sighhhhhhh I have so many wonderful memories and am one of the lucky ones with much to be thankful and greatful for. I also know I have moved on with a positive frame of mind since the devastating loss however, in the next few days my mind will be reliving plus replaying the very sad events from back 4 years ago.

I think the loss of anyone near and dear to us will bring about these feelings when the anniversary comes around but I do wonder about the saying.."Time heals all wounds" Myself I am still confronted with the painful memories but I think also it is a sign of respect that I fill these next few days (although I do think of him constantly throughout the year) with good memories as well as the bad ones and keep this man's memory alive in my heart as a tribute to his love for me and his children...

Please excuse me if I seem a little quiet over the next few days if you see me. I know you will understand.....]]> http://www.sarahsplayhouse.com/-anoushka-/blog/time-heals-they-say/ Wed, 14 Jul 2010 09:34:20 +0000 Anoushka http://www.sarahsplayhouse.com/xxJiggyxx/blog/failure-does-it-exist-or-is-it-in-our-minds/
My first real relationship, the one I thought was the girl...didnt turn out that way. Long story short, I caught her cheating, the upcoming marriage was off, we remained friends, she died 2 years later. Where was the lesson in all of that? Its easy. I racked my brain for weeks trying to figure out why she cheated and what I finally realized was that there cant be just 1 reason, and the blame isn't totally on her. I should have recognized that there was an issue, I should have known something wasn't right. Now I'm not here to debate whether or not I was right there, but to talk about what I learned from it. I learned that maybe I wasn't paying attention to what I should be, maybe I wasn't noticing all the little things. So now in relationships, I try my best to remember all the little things, take notice to everything, appreciate the entire woman, all the time, in totality.

I had a job once, back in like 1989. It was an awesome job looking back on it. Some new guy got hired, young know it all kid. He seemed to be getting all the cool and kushy assignments and it was pissing me off. He was a screw up and I knew it, just that the boss didn't. I tried to show him but in the end all I did was show how much of an idiot I was for trying to make someone else look bad. I made myself look like a self-important fool. I ended up quitting that good job and was basically unemployed for a few months after. I did it to myself. I had a good job and gave it away. About a year later the boss finally did realize the other guy was an idiot and he got fired. But I did learn from it, I learned that I should just stop worrying about the others around me as individuals at work and worry more about the team. Thank god I learned that because my career after that was nothing but teamwork and I had to learn to trust my team, and my partner.

Around 1994 I started my own business. Nothing big, I was still young. It never made it that far. I relied alot on others giving me advice and doing me favors. What I should have done was learn the ins and outs of what I was doing, keep up with trends, research my own issues. The business may have tanked, but I learned. Now I do alot of my own stuff. Sure I still go to others for advice but I never rely 100% on what they tell me. I research to see if it is factual, if it is benefical, if it is even possible. I have a great business going now and am in the middle of starting a new venture. I'm no Bill Gates or Oprah Winfry, but at least I didn't FAIL.

So you see, had I not learned from those experiences, then truly I would have failed. As a result of those experiences I have a sucessful business, which is my job, and I am recently starting in a new relationship which really brightens my day. Do yourself a favor, go out and try things, dont be affraid to FAIL, cause when you do, you will find in that failure the teachings you need to succeed.

Jim

P.S. Sorry for the poor grammar and spelling, I did this over the course of about 3 hours between other things and it is getting late.]]> http://www.sarahsplayhouse.com/xxJiggyxx/blog/failure-does-it-exist-or-is-it-in-our-minds/ Wed, 14 Jul 2010 05:43:32 +0000 ~Jiggy~ http://www.sarahsplayhouse.com/Dreamz/blog/womans-top-10-turn-ons/
So what do we like?
I posed that question to friends across the globe, friends whose ages range from their ...]]>
So what do we like?
I posed that question to friends across the globe, friends whose ages range from their early 20s to their late 40s. And guess what, guys? Our appetites are every bit as lusty as yours.

Take it outside
Whether it's the change of scenery or the risk of getting caught, doing the do outdoors/in public got lots of enthusiastic votes. One friend reported a particular fondness for graveyards, and two spoke of frenzied moments stolen in medieval cathedral towers in Europe.


Water, water everywhere
Skinny dipping, showering or bathing together, bedding down where the ocean's waves crash into the seashore... Whether in public or in private, we like putting our bodies into bodies of water.


Tell me more
Erotic talk is another big winner. Conversations — in person, on the phone, online — that linger over your most sensual thoughts can lead to your most sensual experiences.


Sure, there's time!
I'll keep this brief: Quickies have a lot of female fans.


Hello, Marathon Man
On the flip side, so do sessions that last a whole night, day or weekend. The mere mention of long, luxurious explorations of every inch of each other's bodies will put most women in the mood. That's where you'll stay until you're both ready to drop from exhaustion.


Create an atmosphere
Never underestimate the power of candles, sexy music and clean linens. Put some thought into creating a sexy mood, and you'll get our attention — and make us look forward to getting yours.


Make me laugh
Nearly all women are looking for a guy with a good sense of humor. Laughing together improves loving together — and what's more pleasurable than good, giggly sex?


Suds it up
Giving your girlfriend a long, sensual shampoo is one way to work her into a lather. Follow it up with a lavish massage — it's highly unlikely that the touching and fondling will end there!


Get experimental
Explore new ideas you've wanted to try. She's as eager as you are to get her whole body (and yours) into the act.


Why ask me?
Some women shiver at the lightest touch, some like it rough. Your girlfriend may be a conventional plain-vanilla type... or she may be savoring some wild fantasies you'd be delighted to share.]]> http://www.sarahsplayhouse.com/Dreamz/blog/womans-top-10-turn-ons/ Tue, 13 Jul 2010 14:04:35 +0000 Dreamz http://www.sarahsplayhouse.com/-anoushka-/blog/the-stalker-a-true-story/ I was aware of being watched! My skin was crawling and I felt quite alarmed as I suddenly knew that I was in the eye of this voyeur. I went about my b...]]> I was aware of being watched! My skin was crawling and I felt quite alarmed as I suddenly knew that I was in the eye of this voyeur. I went about my business, trying not to show how skittish I really was. Eventually when I couldn’t stand it anymore I turned around, only to find that the perpetrator had left and I was all alone which in itself was quite a relief! I was in my study typing on my keyboard when I was first aware that I was under surveillance. As I remember, the hairs stood up on the back of my neck!

A couple of days went by without anything happening, then, it happened again. As I was in the bathroom taking a shower, that same unmistakeable feeling was upon me once again. I could feel eyes watching my every move but I was very cool, calm and collected as I went about my daily cleansing routine, finally shutting off the water and stepping out of the shower to dry myself. I looked around and sighed a big sigh of relief to find myself alone and not in danger after all!

Then it happened! The very next day, later in the day I had to get ready to go out for the evening. Around 5pm I decided to take a shower and spruce myself up ready for a meeting which I had to attend at 7pm. The fear of the unknown from the days before had left me and I was enjoying the warm stream of water from the shower as it was hitting my body evaporating the sudsy lather which now encased my whole body. Ohhh I felt so safe and warm unaware of any impending shock or fear yet to confront me. After rinsing my hair and shaking my head, I slid back the shower door, my eyes still closed and reached out for my towel which was hanging on the back of the bathroom door. My hand came in contact with the towel which I pulled towards me as my eyes gradually opened. It was then it became apparent that yes, I had been observed silently over that period of time and as my eyes confirmed what I was seeing I shrieked with fear! My body trembling, I continued to scream while opening up the bathroom door and throwing the towel outside on the floor. On the towel was the largest Huntsman spider, a big huge, thick, hairy spider, bigger than my hand, watching me with its big twinkling eyes! (Google these spiders to see how big they can be! lol) I shuddered as I closed the door trembling, realising that this creature had almost managed to come into contact with my body .Uggghhhhhhhhh I couldnt believe how lucky I was that I had seen this scary spider in time before it managed to jump onto my skin...

Once I dried myself, calmed down and dressed I was able to muster up my courage to open up the door, gather the towel up, take it outside where I gingerly opened up the towel to let the dazed Huntsman crawl out from within the folds of the towel, onto the grass. Phewwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww, thank goodness that was over. Just another unpleasant chore that had to be taken care of as a woman living alone. I rolled my eyes, sighed and went back indoors, closing the door. I wonder what tomorrow will bring? ]]> http://www.sarahsplayhouse.com/-anoushka-/blog/the-stalker-a-true-story/ Tue, 13 Jul 2010 03:50:52 +0000 Anoushka