I bring you

coffee

fruit

croissants with jam

and a soft boiled egg.

On a tray beside the bed

your coffee goes cold,

while I rouse you with my tongue.

Face ur fear….but wat is it tht ur afraid of….lock ur self out…lock everything around ur heart

So no one can get through to it…I fee like the world has turned against me

I felt like tht bullet went straight into my chest…I felt like heart gave up on me

I was there when u woke up….but vandished when I went to sleep

It like I’m living in a empty prision…I’m the only inmate in here….1 with a broken heart

All these words u said they only sound like a bunch of lies….my heart couldn’t handle

U told me how u felt…but it was feeling for someone else….u said u loved me but u didn’t

U only said it ot make me smile…..I can feel the pain inside…I can feel all tha anguish in my soul

There was a voice in my head who told me to move on…but I have nothing to move on to…

It feels…like the 1st day of school…I was so nervous….

it was the 1st time we met we kissed we laughed

But now I felt this life be pulled apart….like everything tht held me together

I felt lost….I felt alone…I felt like my life was against me

Just pull apart…my heart….let it go into a place where everything is hiding in he dark

I was holding my breath…for as long as I can…til everything went black

U was there….u smiled…u helped me up but u was only thinking of helping someone else

I was only someone who u could talk to but never loved…..it was like my heart just broke into lil pieces again

Y cant I just scream out…scream enough so the wind can carry me away

Y do I have to be here…where u r stealing my whole existence 

I felt like everyone was knocking on my door…t o see if I was still alive

I walked out…with evil in my eyes…red soaked tears and a smile

I was banging on my coffin…yelling someone plz help me get out

It was u who put me there….u thought id just rest in peace….

It feels…like the 1st day of school…I was so nervous….

it was the 1st time we met we kissed we laughed

But now I felt this life be pulled apart….like everything tht held me together

I felt lost….I felt alone…I felt like my life was against me

Just pull apart…my heart….let it go into a place where everything is hiding in he dark

My life is empty,

all gone black.

I can't concentrate,

or stay on track.

From my nose,

into my head.

Mind goes racing,

body is dead.

House in morgage,

car for sale.

All for one more,

thin white trail.

Everything gone now,

no friends around.

Only thing heard,

a shotgun sound.

Nightmare over,

all life past.

The end cost,

you die fast!

Written By: Timmy Lee Roger Belisle Sr.

I’m waking up….everything is so loud….the light is to bright….my heart is beating to loud…where am I

I was gonna come see u…bu t I decided to let u go I tried to keep my head up….but u kept pushing me bk down

I can feel..the world burning around me I felt my heart drown in my misery….now all I need is a lil bit of pain

So I can see how real my life really is see if all the pain was worth it…..if all my agony will survive

How can I put the pieces together again when I keep falling…apart 

How can I put everything bk In 1 memory….when so many r broken

How I can love when there is nothing for my heart to  live for….y even live at all

Y….cant I break free of everything around me…y…cant I keep my focus on u

This was my last chance to say I’m sorry…but u just pushed me away and buried me

I feel trapped…trapped in a ever lasting darkness…I just wave goodbye

I take this last step…I closed my eyes…I faded into nothing….so ill just wave 1 last time

The world is screaming….the screams  wake me up  from the deadest time of  sleep

I felt a pain in my hands they r starting to break….I felt a pain in my chest I’m begging to shake

I changed my world I tried to play this game….but I tend to lose all the time

Y do I keep falling when noone is gonna catch me y do I keep yelling out…y do I keep my screams in

Y am I holding this knife when it should be against my heart until I die

I take 1 final breath….I keep the world close to me….I started to cut til my life came crashing down

Y….cant I break free of everything around me…y…cant I keep my focus on u

This was my last chance to say I’m sorry…but u just pushed me away and buried me

I feel trapped…trapped in a ever lasting darkness…I just wave goodbye

I take this last step…I closed my eyes…I faded into nothing….so ill just wave 1 last time

I cant just stand by…and watch ur life go passing by…I need to help u….but I cant even help my self

I’m siting in a lonely world not a soul to reach out not a scream tht wakes me up at night

I wanna be the 1 tht rises from the ashes…but the ashes from the fire I set

Its my grave rest….the only thing is says….here lies a dead soul….given up on everything

Lost in time….buried beneath her tears….just give her 1 wave….a final wave

Y….cant I break free of everything around me…y…cant I keep my focus on u

This was my last chance to say I’m sorry…but u just pushed me away and buried me

I feel trapped…trapped in a ever lasting darkness…I just wave goodbye

I take this last step…I closed my eyes…I faded into nothing….so ill just wave 1 last time

I still dont understand why some things happen, the way they happen, and the impact they bring upon us when they do. Ive always heard that everything happens for a reason, and im one who preaches the same, but sometimes it may not be clear right away why things have happened. Always Remember to Cherish The Times

Death, whether it be of a close friend, a relative, pets, or someone you knew back in school, they all seem to affect us in ways even just the slightest.  We're shocked, hurt, confused, even devistated when we find out that we have lossed someone that has been in our lives even just for a brief moment. Always Remember to Cherish The Times

Ive lost 3 uncles within the past 2 years, two of which I knew were going to pass because of health issues, one though was a complete surprise.  Each of my uncles impacted my life while they were around, so many memories, so many life lessons, things that will never be forgotten and always be associated with them. Always Remember to Cherish The Times

I had to put my dog down a little over a year ago, and honestly that was probably the hardest thing emotionally I ever had to do. I got him at a year old, he would have turned 13 this past christmas eve. He was honestly my best friend someone I could always count on being there for me, to cheer me up, he just always knew the exact things to do, he may have been a dog but he was part of my family. Pictures, songs, all sorts of things remind me of him.  Always Remember to Cherish The Times

Ive lost quite a few friends from school since graduating or even people I have known through other people, to car accidents or other  events. Today was another one of those days for me, i get on facebook and see 'RIP Sean' all over my news feed....I wasnt really close to him,I went to middle school and high school with him, hell he prolly wouldnt even know who I was if he saw me now. But i remembered him.  I was completely shocked went to his page not thinking it was true, but it was, he took his life this morning. But why?? That still isnt explained, just YESTERDAY he was posting about how much he was enjoying his life, making changes for the better.  He had just gone through a really rough break up, so maybe that was what triggered it?  I dont know. But what I do know is that he was a really funny guy to be around always made you laugh, he brightened up days for people who barely knew him, such as myself. Always Remember to Cherish The Times.

My dad is going through health issues, he has his up days he has his down days.  He will be turning 50 this year.  I get to spend alot of time with him since I live at home still and he isnt able to work since he is technicaly 100% disabled through the military so we have our father daughter times.  I want him to be there when I get married, I want him to be there when I have children. I want these doctors to figure out whats wrong with him and get him back to himself, where he can drive himself around and we not have to worry, get him to get out more, Ive gone through moments where I was scared of losing him because of everything he was going through. Hes getting better though, but no matter what I Always Remember to Cherish The Times.

Ive gotten to where the little things in life make the biggest impact to me, I dont over look much of anything anymore when it comes to someone doing something for me, or me going out of my way to do something for them.  Im not looking for any kind of reaction from anyone who does go out of their way to read this, just kind of wanted to share some thoughts.  Always Remember to Cherish  The Times, no matter how short they may be, no matter how simple they may seem, never assume that you'll have more because you never know when someone you care about or know may be gone and you wont be able to spend that time with them.

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What is life without pain what I is love without sorrow

Y do hearts break y tears drop echoing “I love u”through the air

What if angels and demons fight for peace with a champion more human then human

Y live in a world where lust is power freedom can cost u ur insanity

Y r there so many lonely hearts with smiles y hate ur self for that

Y does saying I love u kill so many who walked the footsteps of gods among men

Without flesh and bone without blood to sacrifice others y hurt the ones we love

Understand the world we once knew escape here find another  life 

When we fall we lose our souls but it’s a sweet love we lose not our souls

Yet we lose faith in one another as the light  on the candle shows us the way has burned out

Now we r lost destined to die at worlds end but to truly see our selfs

We must look into the mirror speak to our reflection listen to wat they have to say

They know how to feel alive again but to take over we 1st must die 

To be free but to be free comes with a price…death

But we cant make a life end on our own we must seduce cry love die…we have to stay alive